Every morning gives us a fresh start. A new day to start over and to make our way. We have things to do, a list of things to accomplish and complete. And, as moms, we have lots of “behind the scenes” work that never gets noticed unless of course it doesn’t get done, then everyone seems to notice. It feels like we are just never enough. I get it. I have the same horrible thoughts sometimes.
I pack a lunch with love but forget the spoon for the fruit cup…
I wash, dry, and fold the laundry, but accidently ruin the new ear buds that were left in the pocket…
I clean the entire house, then see the streaks on the windows…
I plan, shop, and cook the meal, but forget about the French bread until I smell the charred loaf…
I work out and count calories but the skinny jeans I splurged on pre 4-th baby still won’t go on
past my knees…
I give up diet Dr. pepper, but I still don’t drink enough water…
I buy gummy bears when they asked for gummy worms…
I make time to spend with each child, but in doing so neglect my husband and my own basic needs…
It can feel like an unreachable goal, to please everyone. And I am a pleaser, so this is hard. One day while scrolling through Pinterest reading colorful posts that promise 10 days to flat abs and “Best Ever Roasted Chicken!” my eyes stopped on a quote by Augusten Burroughs:
“I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions”
I embraced this as I read it. I wanted to have it put on a t-shirt, or embroider it on a pillow (if I only knew how)! This was totally me! I wanted so badly to fulfill my best intentions, but somehow I always came up short.
I should try harder, I thought. Just learn from my mistakes, be more organized, delegate jobs, make lists, set goals, get up earlier, pray more, pray harder, pray longer, just pray!!!
I mean, none of those are bad things. But, to me, these just added to the list of things I won’t be able to do.
For me, it was a change of mind that changed everything.
Several times in my adult life as a believer, I have had people speak a word over me;
I never received it. I would hear it, and dismiss it, knowing myself to be far from it.
Each time Phillipians 1:6 came to mind
He that began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus
But, I was not complete now, not today. Far from it. Right? But, someday I will be. When Jesus returns. But, God kept sending me that word. He was persistent in pursuing me with this truth. Until, one day, I just believed.
I am complete. Today. Right now, in Christ.
I am whole. Because of Him, I am holy, righteous, sanctified, redeemed, flawless, perfect, lacking nothing. Right now. Not because of anything I do. Just because I believe. I cannot fall short, I cannot fail. He sees all my striving, and even when it does not go as planned, He still sees it as righteous. And He takes great delight in me. He loves me. He likes me. He adores me. I do not have to try and make Him happy, I cannot fail Him. His love is unconditional. When I falter, and even when I sin. He never leaves me.
He doesn’t change His mind about me. And this my friend, changes everything.
When you are running a race, a marathon, an Iron-man, in the rain, in the mud, against the wind, with obstacles, and spectators trying to trip you, but you know you have already won, 1st place, how then do you run? First of all, you still run. But, you do it with confidence, slow and steady. You enjoy the path. You take in the scenery. You learn from the sharp twists and turns, you even rest along the way, all the time thanking God for the win. He is running with you, He is running FOR YOU. You are the rabbit in the tortoise and the hare, but in this version, YOU WIN!
So, if that is true, what is this good work He is working in me from the verse in Philippians that somehow was giving me a small glimmer of hope all those years?
Because that is where I constantly waiver. The enemy whispers failure and I have to stop and capture that thought and know it is not from the Father. He is constantly working in me to strengthen my belief. The faith that I am His and that nothing can snatch me from His loving hand. He is working in me to accomplish the good works He has already planned for me.
So, believe today daughter. You are enough. More than enough. You are complete.
You are not stitched together with good intentions. You are stitched together with good stuff, the best stuff, by the ultimate creator.
He made the stars and the heavens, and then he thought you up, every inch of you. He made you, perfect in every way. He does not make mistakes.
For you created my inmost being: you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made: your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139:13
Put that truth on a pillow!
Enter His rest,